Long distance

Yesterday was argue with gf, i was revision my embedded software system, while revision i go fb, than i saw that my gf asking her guy's friend to do a BBQ, than that time she told me inside library, than i suddenly think of next week and the week after i had to attend a course call CIS, that cert is useful for my future, than i send a message that this friday i need to training for my inter fact game, than she reply me that she going out this friday too, than i was thinking of the BBQ that she ask her guy's friend organize, i thought she is going to it, and she dint tell me any single word about the BBQ, than i reply her with un-patient tone, ask her go where and with who, but she just reply me go town and with friend..... i was rushing my revision, and she dont want tell me directly, want me to ask and ask, than i more un-polite ask her with who. finally we argue it without ending until now.
from here i was thinking that if i am going to work at penang, she is going to work at KL, the situation will be bad, trust each other is useless in long distance relationship, maybe that time she had her own topic, i had my own topic, soon and later we will have no topic to talk d, some more she is a kind of girl never tell me every thing inside her mind, her feeling. For now when we have call, after i end my topic than there will be a blank spot, where we have nothing to say..... besides, if she work at KL and i work at Penang, i will no longer the first who stand beside her, who give her my shoulder. Kissing through 3G phone and web cam just can solve temporary separation, i dont think the feeling between each other still will last for one or two year via web cam or 3G, 99% of couple was defeated by long distance, and i don't want be one of it. some time maybe she is busy or i am busy, we miss each other phone call, sure each of us will think a lot and a lot, trust is one of the prevention, but trust can last for how long? separate for long time is no safety at all. working hour is damn busy, from 8 to 5, when reach home will be around 7 if lucky, when both of us is free at night, which is around 10 to 11 o'clock. busy work will cause us very tired, maybe family will need us that time? cant fully concentrate in the phone, perhaps little ignorance will happen on each other, saturday and sunday? seeing each other through phone and web cam? can solve your need for how long? one month? two month? or three month? if purposely go KL or go Penang for seeing each other? than holiday while in career life will no longer more, there will be around 12 to 15 days per year. Besides, going out with colleague, maybe that colleague got some thinking on you, than he date you out, but due to you have a boy friend, you refuse, than if you got little problem in company, he the first who will help you, than you dont want own him, you agree go out with him for dinner or lunch, than you scare i angry, than you hide from me for positive thinking. but how if i accident found out? and also turn the situation around, if the one go out is me? besides, in different company, we have less common topic to chat, different area, we have less topic to chat too. some time might have emergency meeting or emergency outstation, you not enough time to let me know, than i cant reach you, what will i think? in this time slot you suppose reach home already, you suppose able to chat with me d, but why i cant reach you? it is the same you make the character around.
Long Distance is not only one word: you will wait for me or not?
No, long distance not just you say yes and willing to wait only. that is not possible like a movie, the main actor wait for the main actress or main actress wait for main actor for one or two year, than both of them together again and live happiness..... honestly i dont want long distance relationship, i really dont want it....you will say i am very selfish that i ask you go penang when you graduate, but no matter how, i still want to selfish for this time, KL is a complex place, besides, the life spend at KL is much more higher than penang, i know your parent is at KL. but it is the same situation for me too. And i am the only son, i cant just left my family like that, plus Penang got a lot of opportunity. If my hometown is Ipoh or perak than that is different story.

i still remember you say i very annoying that i keep telling you my assignment is alot la, my test la, my all stuff la... and i sure the thing after i grad and after you grad will make you say i annoying also. besides, after i grad, and you still at melacca, you promise me that you will go penang find me... i found that i wrong d... that is not possible d, in your fourth year, you will be surround by a lot of course, a lot assignment, a lot of test and project. that time really our hard time, can be said the long distance is start at the time when i grad. if you ask me come here and find you, than i will ask you: where did i stay? how i go to find you if i come melacca by bus?
If you ask me drive car come to melacca. can, that is no problem for me, but not that often, and you know it is very tired for driving 6 hour ++, this is different with take bus, you can rest and sleep on bus. Some more you have no internet and 3G phone here, i really dont know how that time..... i dint post this to our blog, because i dont want you get annoyed, and i post here because it keep pop up for this few day....

i dint expected for any solution.... if you ask to wait you, i can.... but can you? cant see each other for one year. just voice contact and text messaging or maybe some time picture message. plus above situation. than after you grad, wait you for two more year.....