LoNe

recently got the feeling of want to be alone, eat alone, read alone... but i still need to depend on friend.......keep got one feeling of i always drag my friend to behind... lab same team with chris, for DSP, i always screw up.... dont know all the theory.... assignment also same, i cant make it clear with time domain, frequency domain, discrete and etc etc.... architecture's theory i totally suck... i can do is the programming, but in lab i feel i am useless... about the embedded, what the hell of my groupmate do? always last minute.... i hate them, but still need to smile at them... dont know why suddenly i cant find my friend and my pals already... feeling i am the isolation area, always need to depend on people, that time the assignment of DSP, my course mate they all divided the question to several group, than i feel i am very useless at all, just can copy all the answer.....and i feel very guilty.. beside i know my fren who do the part of mine sure got a lot of thing to say d, just because i fetch him go school so he dint say in front of me... i know it is very annoyed been keep asking by other that your answer while you doing it very hard and they did nothing, it is same to me too. like that day got one people msn me, ask me give her the lab 2 coding, and my msn suddenly offline, when i online back, just saw she left a message to me: you dont want give me is it? good!!! never mind.. !!!
i was thinking: what? am i owe her? i should give her? what the hell? wanna take something from a person but still use this kind of tone? i got my own misstake and my own problem, i dont knwo how to social with other, i am loosing my friend one by one.. i dont know beside the benefit, still got what can hook the relationship together.. i dont want like this... i dont want live with a mask.......

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