2010

New year!!!, it is about some thing that moving from past to new, it is also a year for a new life, anyway, new year mean new begining for me too.

2009 was a terible year, 80% of it was a bad sector, another 10 % of it is totally a wasted of time, just only 10 % of it is a nice memory for me, there is only few thing that make me won't forget, wich is falling in love with an angel, breaking of with a girl which i had no fate with her..and bla bla bla....

The started of 2010 of mine is surrounded by love, across the 2009 to 2010 with the girl i love by holding her small litter hand with a strong bonding between us.....*smile*....other than that, it is also a new empty year for me, start with a sem with intern, take a break from the stress of acedemic, hanging out with the girl i love, i think it should be a good starting for me...

New year 2010, i already get ready to face the incoming chalange, *add oil*!!!

Wonderfully Day

what a wonderful saturday and sunday. My sweet heart had come back at saturday, we went for a 3D movie, although i had watch this before, but the effect of the graphic and 3D make me think that is worth to watch again with my sweet heart...and yet it is nice to watch with her again, hehe, she change a new hair style d, at first she send me a photo of her new hair style, at that time i don't think it is nice, but after i saw her, wow, a nice new hair style..hehe.

Working Life~~

What will a working life be? that is when start working, you are counting down the lunch time, when the lunch time, you are counting down the time to back home, when back home, you are counting down the time of holiday......and this cycle is keep repeating everyday...LOLz. When the time wanna start LI (intern) my seniors tell me that the intern life very fun very relaxing, ya i agree but i want to add on, it should be more than relaxing, it more likely to be boring if you din't have any work to do. And yet my intern life is totally as what i describe. I don't know what to write inside my daily log book already, everyday repeat same thing, some say "it is good la, no need work" , but i don't think so, i spend the time go factory to learn new thing not waste my time at there, every day waiting for lunch time, waiting for back home, snaking at office, facebooking at office...lolz
By the way, i'm glad that my sweet sweet sweet heart is going back from hometown to Melacca this saturday..hehe, i do miss you a lot leh....what should i do when first meet you leh? a big hug? a deep kiss? a sweet smile? lolz whatever it is, just very sure that in my heart i miss you very much...muackkkk

Moody

Recently so moody.....with no reason no sign before that...is it because after going to the field of work will become like this? It is true, after back from office which stay there for whole day, is tired for me, although doing nothing heavy at there, some time might just sit in front computer, staring to the screen, some time will follow technician walk along the factory..still it is quite tired after all this..
Or may be it is because you are not here? every weekend come out with no idea, no where to go, no partner to out with, wasting my weekend time....but it will be different with you, i think although windows shopping or just walk around in shopping mall or jonker street will not boring for me, it just left around 13 days for you back to melacca, but it is about a few century for me, sigh...
Yesterday was calling you, chat a lot with you, i think that is one of the conversation between us that i cant forget, haha. Thank for telling the truth, thank
for willing sharing with me..... yesterday was three month for us being together, and it is quite happy that u telling me that you getting stronger feeling toward me.. haha. That was our first two month, and i am going to have more and more two month, one year, year and year anniversary with you, please take note oo, not wish to or hope to, but going to.....after yesterday conversation, it make me more confident to the path to future...hehe...
Hmm my factory is quite dangerous, according to S&H department (safety and health) that was average two incident happen per month, sigh last two day i just heard that my friend's department there got one tan of roll material fall down, don't know whether got people injured or not, but i think people without injured is impossible, my department is electrical maintenance, i actually is in charge in software maintenance, but i have no basic of visual basic and PLC, so i had to learn from zero, than i also need to help technician go sub station, cause i cant help my supervisor with no basic of visual basic, so everyday need to face the high risk, facing the 132kV and 11kV. There was a incident happen in our department before, VCB explode. Every day facing dangerous, not i no brave, but i think scare death is every one's instinct right?haha.. so i would like say something here:

I Love You Shu Wen

Erm writing a lot d, and i almost far away from my title d, ok la, just wanna say something here, hehe..after this i gonna upload my photo la..haha...

Me with the safety helmet

Explode Of VCB


Store room that i always snake at..haha

11kV circuit braker

Dangerous...132kV transformer, only can go in sub station with permit of charge man

Capacitor....

Do you what is this? This is test pen, test the circuit of sub station whether got short or not.

i miss u..

I dunno that miss some body will be so suffer for me, i never have that such kind of feeling before....i have been thinking of whole two week d...no matter what i'm doing, and it show morw strongly when i'm free especially when i am too bored in office. You are the course of my miss...i was wishing u will back to Melacca earlier, but it only in my mind, cause i know that u had to work part time in your hometown, i dun like to force people do thing, especially u, because as i said before i like to see your smiling face, and i don't think that after i force u, u still can smile like usual? haha..
It was a whole damn bored week since i am started my LI, go factory with wasting time, doing nothing for whole day, the time that i wasted is the time i always think about u, u will automatically appear in mi mind, with no reason, no symptom...normally according to expert, a pair of couple will get bored to other when in relationship more than certain duration, especially for guy, but so far i din have that kind of feeling that i am bored of u. hehe. I just have feeling that wanna get involved in your life, take part in your future, i already miss your past, so i don't want miss your future.. hehe
***blushing*** ..

LI..

LI == Latihan Industri, also called internship.. i get the offer of CSC steel Malaysia, which placed at melacca, i think i go in wrong company, my section, or u may called is as department is maintenance of electrical section, it is most related to FKE, not FKEKK, but never mind la, i had gone through 5 days d, it is a good chance for me to learn new thing...
This 5 day, i had follow one of the technician checking around, u can say i'm "snaking" haha, cause i'm in the department of maintenance, so where the problem of electrical, where got us...i was follow a super visor which is a programmer, i am placed to software maintenance, but recently the supervisor quite busy, so i had to follow the technician go here go there lo...haha

Besides that, i also had to wear safety boot, safety helmet and the uniform, because at the factory, it is a high risk factory, in average, there was 2 incident per month, most of the case is lost arm, lost finger. So the factory are very important the safety...

All the uniform and safety boot, and safety helmet..


132kV transformer, dangerous...

New Toy

Yeah i got a new "toy" d.. lolz, i got my new car, although it is a second hand car, but it is still my transport for me go to working place and yeah fetch my sweet heart during raining day..haha, so that next time when melacca is in raining season, we still can go out dating.....lolz.
Thank to my dad, haha he bought me a new car, at first he lie me, let me happy for a while, he say he will buy a new car for me, i tot he is kidding me, but when i call my mom, than she also say it is true, than i ask her what car is it, she ask me what kind of car i prefer, than i answer her i wan car which is save patrol de, than she say okay, at the second day, she called me, she told me bought d, lolz i cant believe it, than i ask her about the car's model, she say not make from malaysia, lolz that time i really think that is a Toyota Vios...lolz, but when my sister back home, i ask her what car is it, she say Perodua Kenari......lolz.
Than my mom say, "ya it is true ma, Vios' brother...lolz and yet its engine is not make in malaysia.."
lolz..but never mind, atleast got a car, batter than din have any..hahaha, thank my dad and mom...hehe

Sem Break

wow, sem break d....happy and sour mix together, finally can took off the stress of study and exam....yet had to separate with my sweet heart for 1 and the half month....what a suffer for me.....but i'm happy that last night was a good night, because that is a last night we spend together before we separate for 1 and a half month.....i will very miss u..
Today afternoon, meeting your parent it is quite nervous for me...hehe, make m hand shaking, not dare to say anything..hehe..even pour the source out..hehehe, quite a shame for me.. hehe.. first time having dinner with gf's family, it is a new experience for me..hehehe.

思恋@@missing

Two more paper left, means that two more day left, i only can meet u at next sem already. Just one week without seeing u, i already miss u so much, i cant imagine that it will be one month ++ that we cant meet each other....
Luckily i get the LI Malacca, so next sem still can meet u, date u out....if not, there will be another 6 month cant meet u....Ya, hearing me say "i miss u" to u quite nice for u right? but i was my suffer for being missed u....i never miss a person so much, it is because of u la.. lolz..
Sigh, u had to back hometown right after u finish your last paper...but i din blame u, cause it is not your fault also, this two final week, din really have time to dating, preparation for final with the packed schedule has make us less time to meet each other...and truly be told, it make me miss u a lot...many people say that long distance lover is a big challenge for each other....i rather dun wan this challenge, not i dun believe in each other, but i dun wan suffer by missing u...moreover, i just left one year, after i graduation, i dunno where do i gonna continue my carrier, if i decide back to Penang, will u like to follow me after u grad? besides, next year is your turn to LI, than where will u choose for your LI? will u choose other state?
Sigh it all seem so far for me, thinking for this might still early for me, but it suddenly pop up in my mind, i even cant control it....what will u answer me? Dunno? c first? haha

Ego

Ego.. in other meaning is lansi.. never thought this word gonna use on me.. when i heard other say that i very ego, wow it is kind of weird feeling inside my heart....usually "ego" this word is me send to other, now is my turn to recieve it pula.. huhu....
since when ppl say i'm ego d? since i'm doning project and lab...mostly i wont bother anyone else when i'm concentrate on project and lab, some more i dun like other interupt it..... i din mean to ego.. but every time ppl will say i'm ego...usually when i concentrate on something, i dun like other interupt, that ppl will say i ego... sigh...
Some more ppl say me show off pula.. never mind lo, i wont change it d.. cause it is my trade mark.. hahaha.. no la just kidding.... i try my best change this habbit.. hope my fren not getting decrease.. thank...

"Candless" dinner

Unforgetable dinner.. haha... wow the friday really a wonderfull day, that afternoon after class, i go to bukit beruang have my lunch, expected to have lunch alone, wow so supprisingly my girl friend and her housemate appear at there have their lunch also.. wow i swear that we never discuss or deal with her, it is so coincidence, it can be said that we got fate.. haha.... During the dinner i tell my girl friend that tonight i cant cook lo, cause i forget to search the recepie, than she believe it.. haha

After the dinner, i go Mydin buy some food to cook for the dinner, cause i plan to have a supprise for her.. haha....so when the time she sms me that her class end already and at hostel d, than i start cook lo, after that i go fetch her, and told her will go town have our dinner, than when the time i fetch her, i told her that i forget bring the license along, so had to back home take it, than when the time reach home.....SUpprise....

Sweet heart are u touched? haha i think so....i had keep my promise.. nice leh... i promise that i will cook myself, than i really done it.. haha, love to see your reaction when u found that i actually cooked myself.. haha..and really happy that when i heard u speak out the three word to me..... i love u sweet heart.... muackkkkkk.

Sweet heart gonna taste my chicken chop..

My main dishes...

Manggo puddin as the desert...

The big chief....

Wow, sure it is nice lo?? haha

Just For Fun.....

How to say I LOVE YOU in 100 Languages
English - I love you

Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief

Albanian - Te dua

Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)

Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)

Armenian - Yes kez sirumen

Bambara - M'bi fe

Bengali - Ami tomake bhalobashi (pronounced: Amee toe-ma-kee bhalo-bashee)

Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu

Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo

Bulgarian - Obicham te

Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah

Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a

Catalan - T'estimo

Cherokee - Tsi ge yu i

Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse

Chichewa - Ndimakukonda

Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)

Creol - Mi aime jou

Croatian - Volim te

Czech - Miluji te

Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig

Dutch - Ik hou van jou

Elvish - Amin mela lle

Esperanto - Mi amas vin

Estonian - Ma armastan sind

Ethiopian - Afgreki'

Faroese - Eg elski teg

Farsi - Doset daram

Filipino - Mahal kita

Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua

French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore

Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort

Georgian - Mikvarhar

German - Ich liebe dich

Greek - S'agapo

Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo

Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw

Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe

Hebrew - Ani ohevet otekh (to female)

Hebrew - Ani ohev otkha (to male)

Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw

Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae

Hmong - Kuv hlub koj

Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta

Hungarian - Szeretlek

Icelandic - Eg elska tig

Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw

Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu

Inuit - Negligevapse

Irish - Taim i' ngra leat

Italian - Ti amo

Japanese - Aishiteru

Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene

Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka

Kiswahili - Nakupenda

Konkani - Tu magel moga cho

Korean - Sarang Heyo

Latin - Te amo

Latvian - Es tevi miilu

Lebanese - Bahibak

Lithuanian - Tave myliu

Macedonian - Te Sakam

Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu

Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu

Maltese - Inhobbok

Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni

Marathi - Me tula prem karto

Mohawk - Kanbhik

Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik

Nahuatl - Ni mits neki

Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni

Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg

Pandacan - Syota na kita!!

Pangasinan - Inaru Taka

Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo

Persian - Doo-set daaram

Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay

Polish - Kocham Ciebie

Portuguese - Eu te amo

Romanian - Te iubesc

Russian - Ya tebya liubliu

Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort

Serbian - Volim te

Setswana - Ke a go rata

Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')

Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan

Sioux - Techihhila

Slovak - Lu`bim ta

Slovenian - Ljubim te

Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo

Swahili - Ninapenda wewe

Swedish - Jag alskar dig

Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di

Surinam - Mi lobi joe

Tagalog - Mahal kita

Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li

Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe

Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen

Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu

Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)

Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)

Turkish - Seni Seviyorum

Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu

Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo

Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)

Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)

Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di

Yiddish - Ikh hob dikhYoruba - Mo ni fe

Different country have different languague, but all the meaning is the same, all this world is use to dilevered a meaning, that is :

I LOVE YOU

Sumo Robot exhibition

Wow, today is our course project exhibition.. We had doing the sumo robot for half of the sem, from zero to 100%, although most of us not sucess, but the process of completing the robot is a good experience..

Well it is a big challange for us, our lecturer just give a title of project : Sumo Robot, than the other thing is research by ourself, such as circuit, pic microcontroller circuit also search by us, component part also bought buy us, even the programming also done by us... so this is from zero to complete..

It is very fun if got other done the project with u togather, well my group have three person included me, but i feel like i'm doing whole the project myself.. sigh it is too bad to have a sleeping groupmate.. while i discuss my project, i always discuss with other, not with my groupmate, untill other thought i am same group with chris... lolz..Untill the we had to do the exhibition next day, than my groupmate start care about this.. what the hell, i already told myself not to sleep late nite again after the day before presentation, but yet yesterday i had to repeat it again.... it cause me nose bleeding next day.... hate the last minute stuff....

I think.. no no no, i sure next year i wont be same group with him again d.. there are two ppl is baned by me.... those who wont done anything in the assignment but yet like to complaining....sigh, no nid mention them d.....moddy when mention it... lolz

Ops, it look likt i far away from my title.. lolz, anyway it is a quite relief after the exhibition.. hehe..

随写@Random

星期六，一个不需要去想学业，想assignment, project 的日子，感谢你肃雯，谢谢花时间出来陪我，从早到晚，你都陪在我身边，谈些心事，看看戏，去海边。最近的project,assignment把我压得不能透气，跟你在一起，让我的心静下来，暂时把压力抛开，我想我会开始用英文写布落格了，因为我很想和不会读华语的你分享我的心情。


Thank you my sweet heart, u as a angel which make me peace and happy. I admit that i'm a person who easy to open my bottel of venegal.. haha, i know you smell it many time d, i can seen you try to make me feel batter. And thank for that. Honestly your "sixth sensens" always right.

U got tell me maybe i am the one who abadon u, no u are wrong, u are so outstanding, and i'm the one who no confident, that is y i so over protective,i'm trying my best to let u... try my best not to over protective... ya as i been told, be togather with u i will face some presure, because u are english educated, and i'm traditional chinese educated, sure our thought will have some different, u might feel smtg is not a big deal, but maybe i will think it is quite serious....but although with the different thinking, i still like to try my best to keep our relationship batter and batter, and i would like to proof that me and u can solve all the problem all the presure togather, i wan to prove to other who not agree with us...


Thank for the saturday date. You had sacrify your whole day to accompany me, u know, when the time i fall in love to u, i make a decission that i want you happy every time, happy with me, dunno u seen my "try" or not, i never tell other the "bed time story" before because my creativity not so good, the bed time story i told u is the unexspected idea.. hehe.. i also dunno i can crap the story out.. haha


I had decide to write my blog in english from now because i would like to share my world with u..

i'm attracted by this reaction.. hehe, u look so cute my sweet heart...

分享

看了一篇文章，觉得不错下：

喜欢静静地想你，放上一段优雅的音乐，

沏上一杯淡淡的花茶，捧着一本厚厚的小说，在字行之间寻找你的字。

你的身影很模糊，你的脸庞很朦胧，但这并不影响我想你的情绪。

我没有很想你，只是在高兴的时候会想起你，你是我第一个想要分享的人；

我没有很想你，只是在不高兴的时候会想起你，你是我第一个想要倾诉的人。

我想你，但只是想你而不打扰你。

我没有很想你，只是在听歌的时候会突然想起你，不为什么，只因为那歌词里写的好像我和你；

我没有很想你，只是在沉思的时候会突然想起你，不为什么，只因为你会突然闯进我的思绪；

我没有很想你，只是在看书的时候会突然想起你，不为什么，只因为那书中的男女主角好像我和你。

我想你，但只是想你而不打扰你。

想你，但却害怕让你知道，所以不敢也不会打扰你。

只有把你的信息保留在一个空间里，然后慢慢的咀嚼那种如橄榄般甜蜜而苦涩的滋味。

想你，但却害怕让你知道，所以不敢也不会打扰你。 

只有在每个寂静如水的夜晚等你的信息，等来了，心里是一阵莫名的激动，不想让你知道我的心情，只有压抑着满怀的高兴给你发去淡淡的问候、淡淡的玩笑、淡淡的----。

等不来，就只有带着一丝淡淡的惆怅在半梦半醒中睡去。

想你，但却害怕让你知道，所以不敢也不会打扰你。

在没有你消息的日子里，只有拼命地找寻你的点滴，点滴，把这些点点滴滴全都刻在脑海里。

我想你，但只是想你而不打扰你。

我想你，但是不想打扰你。

无题

很久没有update又想不到要说些什么，最近有很多Assignment和Project，忙到没有时间去写部落格，还好还有照片上载，下次想不到些什么时候就上载图片啦。。

其实还有一些图片的，但是女主人说不可公开，那么只好自己欣赏吧！

冠军

今天我们的科系赢了，我们拿到了冠军，几开心的。哈哈。我很渴望拥有一个在篮球上的冠军，今天终于如愿了！！很感谢我的女友，她全程都在一旁支持我，哈哈。不怕日晒雨淋，今天打得一点都不累，也许一半是她的支持吧。哈哈。这是我的一个梦想，在场上比赛，自己的女友在场下帮你打气。今天实现了！！ 好开心呀！！！

YES !!!

好久没有上来这个部落格Update了，How Shu Wen，这个名字跟我有了联系，因为。。。她是我的女朋友！！从有点儿戏的开始，到现在每天都会想念着她，我们在假期之前约好每天视频聊天，感觉很甜蜜，嘻嘻！！也许她是香蕉，所以会比较大胆一点，我会好好珍惜这个女生，好可爱的一个女生。想到那天就开心了，我们是在摩天轮里开始的，哈哈！！就是在那里，我向她表白的！！在戏院里拖手，在广场里拖手，在机场街拖手走整条街，在摩多车后抱着我，12/9/09

这个日子很特别，是我脱离单身的日子，感谢上天派来了一个天使陪在我身边！！

我和她！

决定

hmmm,终于有了决定，似乎一切都成了定局，我想我可以很肯定地说当其他人发觉我的“决定”我相信会有很多我的坏话，可以预见朋友可能不是朋友，但是至少还有几个吧，也许这只是开始，相信后面的压力会陆续增加，对我来说我根本不在乎，我真的希望不会连累到她罢了，因为我觉得我们没有错，可是在其他人眼中呢？也许这就是所谓的：众人皆醉独我醒。看来真的要像Chris说的不要理其他人说什么，只要开心就好！！至于所谓的闲言闲语，我不在乎了，但是真的，不要连累到她，人的典论很可怕的，三人成虎的典故是真的，即使彼此既相信对方也好，那些所谓的闲言闲语就是彼此最大的考验，希望我们不会被这个“大”考验打倒！！

拍拖

“不要为了结婚而结婚，不要为了拍拖而拍拖”这句话好，很赞同，有个故事我觉得蛮不错：
有个小男孩在一个院子里看到院子里的玫瑰花开得很美，于是他就顺手摘了，结果园丁看到了，就问小男孩说：你为什么要摘下那朵花？ 小男孩回答说：因为我喜欢那朵花，我想把它带回家。园丁听了，没说什么，继续浇其它的花，小男孩看到了，就问那个园丁说：你又在做什么？园丁说：因为我喜欢它，所以我让它留下。小男孩听了似懂非懂，把花种回去，但是为时已晚，花已变成了花干了。
这个故事告诉我们说：有一种爱叫放手，感情不是投资，没有所谓的回报。爱她就要让她幸福快乐，如果无法让她快乐，那就让别人给她幸福快乐吧。我想要说的是：秀华，你不再是我的枷锁，你是我的美丽的回忆。祝你幸福快乐！！
失恋不是结束，而是开始，新的开始。单身不是耻辱，而是自由。拍拖是为了让彼此更了解对方。
PS: 虽然我可以说得很洒脱，但是心还是有点刺痛，患然若失，毕竟失去了一向来的习惯，失去了依靠，偶尔我还是会期待曾经经常出现在我电话上的号码，偶尔也会偷偷想知道她的近况，但是我还是可以重新习惯，依靠可以靠自己，加油加油！！
当你爱上一个人，伤害是不可避免的，但是值得，因为伤痛让你成长，成熟，除了得到伤痛，你也得到了美好的回忆。

心情写说

今天又下厨啦，下午煮了绿豆汤，晚餐时煮了大餐。美中不足的是一直有人在旁边唠唠叨叨，妈的最讨厌这种人了，炸鸡时，他竟然在旁边一直说：炸东西是最容易的，容易的东西就交给我做啦，难的东西就他做啦。。等等之类的东西。。很烦啊。。

最近我给了他一个外号，“放大镜”，因为他最会做的东西是：把自己做的事情无限放大，把别人做错的东西无限放大，但是当自己做错东西时，会静静的不出声，如果当时有人做错东西时， 那更好，为什么？因为可以无限放大别人做错的事，来Cover自己的东西。。

还有另一个朋友，更够力，整天都想去领导其他人，自己又没想过有没有这个本事，无可否认他参过的活动很多，但并不代表他就能领导其他人！！他最近做了一个我很火的事情，那天去BTN,他坐我旁边，我跟他说：XX，听说你第四年会过来跟我们一起住？，他竟然跟我说：对了，还没有问你，第四年是不是拿一个房间，不要到时又改变主意，他妈的，现在是我想跟你住，还是你想过来跟我们住呢？还有，他什么都想参一脚，最近的Robot Game,他也想参一脚，那天他知道伟正参我们去Robot Game, 他又抱怨说没有邀他一起，walao他以为他是谁，什么东西什么活动都要邀他的么？跟他做朋友我都要Thank You,心领了，谢谢，我配不上他！！

我的晚餐！！

等待

最近听了一首歌，不是新歌，是大陆歌手唱的， 歌名叫做等待，歌手叫做陈奕， 分享下歌词：

我守候在你家的门外

整个晚上都不离开

我想你靠在我的胸怀

我要将感觉留到every night

走在吵闹拥挤的人海

我想要好好感觉你的存在

望着遥远灰色的星海

一个人孤独的发呆

我依然还在等待

等待你会明白

一颗坚强的心在等你回来

风在吹

让他擦去我脸上的泪

不要以为我真的无所谓

我依然还在等待

等待你会明白

一颗坚强的心在等你回来

不怕累

只要我的身边有你陪

请你相信我是真的不后悔

听过后，有一些感触，想起了她，我不是放下她了吗？为什么今天去看LI的List 时，还在想她有没有得到，没想到我只不过是潜意识逃避而已，不是真的放下，唉，感情不是说放下就真的能就这样放下了，唉，烦啊！！为什么对她还恋恋不舍？为什么我酱没用？为什么还是不能忘了她？为什么酱折磨？为什么还想要等待？她还会回来吗？她还记得我们的恋情吗？她有了依靠了吗？她还好吗？近来怎样了？唉！！这些都是没有答案的问题。。。。。。

放开这样的你, 并不容易, 为何这一切已注定

模拟面试

Techom II 要我们来一个模拟面试，我，Chris, Kok Hong 和文昱一组，带着忐忑不安的心情去面试，还要穿formal的服装，唉，我没有带来，只好跟Ah Bong借咯。。终于面试完咯！！
眼看LI的日期要到了，还有3个月，但是没有一间公司回复我，很担心啊！！

我和Ah Chris

3 个帅哥！！哈哈

我们这一组

External Hardisk

终于下定决心了，下定决心买下了一个Portable Hardisk。多谢老板娘，给了我和伟正很便宜的价格，总共花了RM 233买下了Pen Drive的Portable Hardisk，320GB的。RM 233包括了一个Pouch，自己也买了一个Pouch, RM5的Pouch，老板娘讲算我们成本价。而且我又得到RM20的Macdonald Voucher。可谓满载而归，但是呢我的钱包就一下子瘦了很多，看它憔悴的样子，让我好心疼！！



Portabal Hardisk RM 228


Free Pouch



Pouch RM 5



Free RM 20 Macdonald Vouncher

贴士

考完了EMT，全靠教授的贴士！！好准，整张考卷就是我们的贴士啦！！可以说是泻题啦！！开心到我们，考试才过了十分钟，就有学生离开考场了，几夸张！！考完这一课，还有一大堆的Assignment 和 Project 接踵而来，OMG 我要死掉啦！！还有一个Robot Game Competition 要跟进，忙得要死啦！但是我还是享受其中，哈哈！
Hmm今天没什么Mood 写了，没有灵感，改天再继续啦！！

晚餐

刚刚吃了“烛光”晚餐，哈哈。意大利面 + garlic面包 + 蘑菇汤 + salad = 我跟玮婷的“烛光”晚餐！！哈哈。Hmm 有点感动，这是第一次非家人以外的女生煮东西给我吃！！她竟然还跟我玩Suprise，本来我们打算去糖水屋吃糖水的，这是她欠我的一餐，哪里知道，原来她偷偷的亲自下厨，煮了那些东西，OMG， 这是我第一次有女生煮给我吃，还是特地的， OMG。我.我..我竟然有点感动，哈哈，我竟然想到我的前女友，我想到她跟了我酱久，一餐都没有煮过给我吃，她又不是不经常下厨的，有点悲哀！！算了啦，想不到玮婷跟我认识不深，竟然亲自下厨给我吃，可能她对其他朋友也是一样的吧，但是这的确是我的第一次！哈哈！！也许， 经过秀华后，我不应该想太多了啦！好可惜，忘了拍下烛光晚餐的面貌，没关系啦，写下这篇部落格也一样的吧，我的大学生活又写下了一片难忘的回忆了！

神啊，救救我吧！！

救命啊，考试来了，可是我还是没准备好，救命啊！！以前还会有一个人在后面鞭策我，督促我，难道没了她我就无法读书了吗？听说你最近和一个男生好上了啊？想不到我还没放下你，最近没有看到你，你还好吗？不知道你的近况，看到你班的人都很勤力，我想你一定是又熬夜读书了，想当初这也是我们争执的课题，我不想你熬夜读书，你却觉得我不应该管酱多，你也觉得我又何尝不是熬夜打机，更觉得我不应该把时间浪费在打机上，当时我们为了这个伤了感情，但是往事已逝，想酱多有什么用？我应该把所有心思放在课业上，以前，我对Programming一级Hardware很用心的，一有Project我一定第一个想它，现在Micro controller的Project放在我面前，我却好像提不起兴趣去动它了，不懂，跟你分手后，我好像什么都提不上心了，到现在，我还不清楚我这个学期有拿什么科目，几点上课，甚至还要问Chris第二天几点上课，OMG 我到底是怎么了？我不要酱子，我要回以前的我！！！神啊，救救我吧！！！

赚钱辛苦

哇！！！三天的PC Fair已经过了！！第一次站Fair真的很辛苦，挨到今天才勉强能有心思，有力气写网志。PC Fair 里的美女蛮多，但是马六甲身为H1N1灾区最严重的地方，全部人都戴上口罩，看到的美女不懂拿下口罩后会不会还是美女一个？？哈哈！！不过戴口罩做工好辛苦，因为你会呼吸困难！！三天，站了36个小时，我的脚已经快要不属于我的了！！起泡脱皮不说，脚跟好像开始想跟我罢工了，大拇指呢， 开始失去感觉了，三天喝得太少水，开始发热气，一回到家，就立刻流鼻血，比看到美女还够力！！不过老板好慷慨，两餐全包，最后一天还有麦当劳的汉堡包吃呢，在那边还认识了一个美女，叫做Wenddy人满不错下，十八岁以下， 哈哈！！很可爱的一个小女生。。做了三天，站了三天，酸了三天，苦了三天，累了三天，他妈的薪水终于出了！！RM 240！！！！ 哇！！当拿薪水时，任何苦，累，酸，痛，也都值得了！！！

他妈的薪水！！！

xXx

何谓性爱？有性才有爱？有性，爱才能长久？还是爱到了某个程度，性就是爱情里的润滑剂？搞不清楚，道德理论上说：性是很神圣的礼物，是夫妻将来结婚时献给对方的礼物。 也有人说：性是大家的生理需求，有需要就做吧！但是到底谁对谁错呢？现在的大学里，大多数人都不是处男处女了，这个现象是好是坏，没人可以判决！！
有人跟我说跟女朋友做爱是因为如果不做的话，当她离开你时，你会觉得不甘心，但是如果她的处女给了你，当你们分手时，你不会酱伤心，因为你已得到了她的全部！！OMG 酱的道理也可以？？对于这个道理我很不认同！！虽然我对性爱很向往，哈哈，我不觉得性爱可以拿来当条件，性爱是男女之间最神圣的游戏！！

Andy 上槟城了，因为情势所逼，哈哈，所谓有女朋友也烦，没有女朋友也烦！！不提也罢，今天下大雨，不能出去吃，又自己煮，Ah Bong 从Genting 回来了，我们就一起煮。。


当当当：

同情@@安慰

自从分手以来，很多人都对我说：别放在心上，还有很多女孩子，再找过另一个更好的，就当作这次是交了学费，上了一堂爱情课！！
也有人对我说：如果爱她的话，就坚持到底，继续等她！！
而我很乱，自从分了手后，我深深的把我的伤心埋藏在心底最深处，不去挑它出来，但是马六甲很小罢了，我和她走过的地方很多，有很多我跟她的回忆，所以无论我如何隐藏，如何逃避，回忆就想走马灯，时不时都跳出来让我顿了几下。但是我很在意朋友的眼光，很多人安慰我，可是我很怕这些安慰，我懂他们是关心我，但是我很怕看到他们眼里那一丝的同情眼光，在他们面前我是一个很开朗的朋友，只有自己知道自己的痛楚，因为自己是欺骗不了自己的！！
也有一些朋友是那种：哇，又有新话题讲了， 这些朋友让我敬而远之。朋友还是照做，但是就这两年而已，两年后？我想隔条街见到，我也扮不认识吧！！Puppy Love 曾经是我很期待的东西， 但是经过这段感情，我想 Puppy Love 不是很适合我，我要的应该是天长地久的感情！！至于秀华呢？我想如果还有机会复合的话， 我会立刻答： Yes, 但是未来的事很难讲，也许到时候她没有了当初对我的感觉呢？也许那时候我也没有了Feel 呢？顺其自然吧。
人是很奇怪的动物，一定要受过伤才能成长，为什么人不能一生就顺利，没有跌跌撞撞的成长呢？看过一句话，很有道理：什么是最珍贵的东西？

就是还没得到的东西和失去的东西！！

算了不去想酱多了，越找人诉苦，可能越让人觉得厌烦，越愁眉苦脸，可能越让人觉得你在扮可怜！还是开开心心最实在！！

八月3日， 晴

Hmm 想不到标题，所以就。。。

今天交房租咯！！总数是RM 55，过后我跟Andy觉得很闷，看到庭院里的草长到。。突然心血来潮向他提议剪草，我们就觉得因该没问题的。然后下午六点多，开始我们的剪草行动。刚开始时，我们觉得很新鲜，很好玩。除完庭院的草，然后顺便剪后院的草，结果，他妈的，早知道，我宁愿给那几块钱，叫人来剪，到现在我的手还是很酸！！原来除草是很辛苦的，妈妈，我现在才知道您在家剪草是很辛苦的，以后我会帮您了。

剪完草，我们决定吃大餐一慰劳自己，刚好Andy 的Uncle 来马六甲，我们就决定先吃晚餐，然后去找Andy 的Uncle,然后再带他们去吃蚝煎。结果我们在Batu Berenam 兜来兜去，想了很久才决定去“糖水屋” 吃，哪里知道去到哪里，没开，结果我们去了啃的基爷爷那里，解决了我们的晚餐！过后就去找Andy 的Uncle. Andy 告诉我说，他的叔叔们都是百万富翁，公司里的老总！！ OMG 害到我很紧张，因为没有跟富翁一起出去过，结果见到他们是，我只想说一句话：你们真的是一分钟几百万上下的吗？他们真的很低调，不讲我还看不出是有钱人。过后，他们决定让Andy 驾他们的车，让Andy 方便，终于我有幸上了 Estima !!! 结果当场又出丑，因为不会关车门，原来Estima 的门是轻轻拉一下就可以了，它会自动关的！！OMG 几 Pai Se...过后去吃蚝煎！！发现Andy 的叔叔们没有暴发户的架子，吃东西时，一定要吃到干干净净，我推论他们一定是白手起家的！！吃了蚝煎，我们就回了！！

十二点多了，突然又想念某个人！！好想你哦，不敢打给你，不敢SMS你，你还好吗？要多喝水哦，多保重自己的身体！！

一起剪草的我们！！

学校被隔离的日子

UTeM 终于中招了，校方终于实行隔离消菌！！我们有一个星期的假期，当天我立刻赶到Central 买车票，哪里知道当天和隔天的车票完了！！OMG，有酱多人回吗？过后junior 告诉我 UTeM 有提供巴士回家乡，所以我叫 Wooi Min 帮我登记，哪里知道晚上7 点多才有消息，当时失望了，跟 Andy 买了晚餐的材料了，而且还是我们煮了一半才有消息，算了咯，就决定留下来啦，陪Andy, 还可以找伟正喝喝茶。。而且伟正还帮我找到 7 ，8，9 号去Melacca 的 PC Fair 做。所以，我又不回家啦！！

我和Andy 煮的晚餐！！

谢谢

在这里我想感谢几个人，虽然他们很有可能看不到，哈哈，那几个人是：伟正，Chris, 我的Junior =>desmond's gang..





==== 伟正，你是我在UTeM里最最最好的朋友，不懂你是不是把我也当成好友？不过没关系，在学校里，只有你能让我觉得可以把所有东西和你分享。





=====Chris, 你可以说是我最最最好的女性朋友，很多人都说一个男人和一个女人是不可能做朋友的，在这里我想跟他们说：你他妈的错了，男人跟女人可以有纯友谊的！！我和Chris就是一个列子！！Chris 真的是一个很Nice的人，在此恭喜她的男朋友了，恭喜你找到一个酱好的女生！要好好珍惜！！她和我是什么时候跟我很废呢？我自己也忘记了，也许应该是上几个学期吧，在课室里一起废，在我低落时，很感谢她借我一对耳朵，很感谢她不管被Lecturer 盯死时照样和我聊天，哈哈！！真的很感谢你Chris..





=====desmond's gang, 哈哈，想起你们，我就忍不住咧开嘴巴！！你们真的是好人！！哈哈，连写这个部落格也是Desmond 叫的，说是可以发泄的其中一种管道！！Anyway, 谢谢你们，尤其是 Choon Hong, Ivan 和 Desmond.. 哈哈！！











我和Chris:





伟正和我：

寄某人

嗨！还好吗？好想像以前酱叫你宝贝，但是，唉，时间是不能回头的。。每当夜深人静时，真的好想你！！真的没有机会复合了吗？？你讲我们的性格不和，那里不和了呢？？难道真的忙得无法抽空陪我吗？算了，都已经过了，我跟自己讲过，要把你忘了，但是真的，我办不到，我很想很想再和你一起！和我在一起半年多了，你难道没有感觉吗？想当初你问我爱你吗？当时我无法回答你，哈哈，当时我们还协议说试看能不能在一起，当时我对你的感觉真的很普通罢了，但是和你在一起久了后，我发觉我无法自拔了，但是你却从头到尾很理性的对待我们这段感情，和你在一起时，很多人劝我分手吧，你不适合我，我不理，我觉得我可以证明他们是错的，哪里知道原来错的是我，是我不适合你！！其实我自己在欺骗自己罢了，上一个学期我看得出你已经有跟我分手的意思了，我很感谢你给了我一个学期尝到爱情的滋味。
分手了有一个月之久了，那一个月里我以为我可以摆脱了你，哪里知道，当我听到你跟别的男生一起时，我的心突然加速，感觉很不舒服，看来我还是放不下你，你呢？已放下我了吧？我不是一个很好的情人，我不会哄你，我以为爱你只要做出来可以了，其实我错了，哄你也是很重要的，有时跟我抱怨说我无法让你感动，真得很对不起，这一个恋爱让你恨压力了，我又很爱吃醋，你又是一个有很大抱负的女人，我想我真的不自量力以为可以给到你幸福，到头来只让你觉得很压力而以。。
那天我假借喝醉酒打电话给你，我想你一定是很反感吧。很对不起了，造成你和无辜的人困扰，也许看太多香港连续剧，我真得很不成熟。直到现在你还是没和我说过话，有时想要在msn 那边 add 你，但是又怕你觉得我很烦。唉，直到现在我还是对你存有幻想。。怎么办？

心情

7月11日
是我不能忘记的日子。。分手了！！是好事吗？我不停的自问。没有答案！！有人问我会后悔跟她在一起吗？我想了又想，答案终于出来了，不会！！这是我的答案！犹记得那天，分手前的那一天，傻傻的我跑去她的家，跟她说了一些无聊的话，也许分手的念头就在那天在她的头脑形成了！！有人问我会后悔当天跟她说那些话吗？不会，我不后悔，因为如果我没提起我们的问题，将来有一天我们还是会提到的，都怪香港的连续剧啦，《老婆大人》，因为看了那出连续剧，我深有感慨，跑去找她谈判，唉！！